hello there polkadots

Hello there!

Thank you all so much for the positive comments on my last post, I really appreciated them! I'm glad I talked about this topic and let it all out.

Today I had a bit of a blues in the morning. I've been feeling so sick and tired of my daily grind lately and it's really getting me down. I've said this before when I talked about financial dependance, but it's not only about money. I feel stuck in my student life in general  even though I have finished my studies.

Well, the reason for this is that on paper I actually will be a student until the end of September which means I will be limited to working in my two student jobs. It's the office or the coffee shop during the day and my place in the evenings. Sometimes I go out and have a drink at my favourite hangout but that's about it. 

I love this city dearly but after the same places and faces for the last 8 years I am so ready to see something new! I have found the best friends and made some of the best memories of my life in Düsseldorf but the thought of going somewhere new soon makes it hard to still be completely happy here.

That's unfair to say actually because I will definitely miss my stomping grounds a lot. But I also miss my boyfriend over in Perth a lot and I feel this wanderlust growing stronger and stronger.

However no visa is ordered, no flight is booked yet and I feel a bit unsettled, restless and impatient.

This really spoiled my mood today.

I'm sick of sitting around and waiting for things to happen. I'm waiting for my bachelor certificate, I'm waiting for the money I need to prepare my year abroad. Waiting sucks!

So to get me out of the blues I thought about things I can do to achieve some progress and move towards my goal of going to Australia.

Well, I will have to clear out my apartment before I go anyway, so I thought I can at last try to already get rid of as much stuff as possible. I had started to sort out things some weeks ago and sold a part of it at the flea market two weeks ago, but there are still enough books, movies, clothes and clutter that have to go.

So I offered my dvds in a Facebook group, put lots of my clothes up for sale on Kleiderkreisel and dragged a big bag full of books to the city library to donate them.

On my way home I grabbed a Vanilla Latte at Starbucks to reward myself. My mood was way better and I felt like I had gotten rid of some more baggage by actually doing something instead of waiting for everything to solve itself. Progress yay! Now I can hopefully sell all of my stuff to make some extra money for the Australia plans.

If you'd like to shop my closet you can see what's up for grabs HERE!
The website is only for Germany, but if there's something you like I offer international shipping too. Just let me know and I'll find out the shipping costs.

Usually I'm rather a pessimist but today I'm really proud of myself for pulling my head out of the dark clouds and getting shit done. Sometimes I really just need a reminder of that we have to do things ourselves to achieve our goals. No one will go and do it for you, you have to do it yourself!

By the way it's the same when it comes to weight loss: I'm still trying to get rid of 3-4 kilos, so I'll do some workout before I go to bed. No one else will do it for me and if I just sit there and wait nothing will happen because the love handles won't just vanish into thin air (such a bummer!).

Happy Tuesday!

blog recommendation: everything healthy

Hi guys!

I stumbled upon this tumblr blog called "everything healthy" the other day and really liked it.

I've been trying to work out regularly in the last weeks (mostly by using the Youtube channel BeFiT) and I signed up for Weight Watchers Online again to get rid of the kilos I've gained over the last months because of a broken foot and bachelor thesis stress.

I'm just not happy with my weight anymore but that's only because I know that my feel good weight is what I had been maintaining for 1,5 years before the broken foot kept me from working out and before the bachelor stress made me stuff my face with pizza way too often.

It's totally okay to not work out and to not pay attention to calories, yes it's totally okay to enjoy life and good food without giving a damn about gaining weight.

I however have come to a point where I think it's time to do something again because I know otherwise I will feel bad in my own skin. It's not purely because of body fat, it's also for skin, digestion and health reasons. Furthermore it's healthy for my brain to remember that you shouldn't just pig out on anything delicious (self-control is an important virtue).

Oh and in addition to all of this I'm also trying hard to cut down my daily cigarette consumption. When I started this project some months ago I easily smoked 15-20 cigarettes daily because I just didn't pay any attention to all these nasty little habits I had developed over the past years. Now I'm already down to 9 cigarettes per day which is a big success. I know many people quit smoking over night, but I think in my case baby steps are the right method.

So as I said I stumbled upon this tumblr blog called "everything healthy" the other day and really liked it. You can find lots of inspiring little pictures about food, fitness, training, motivation and health there.

Check it out if you like!

Happy Monday! :)