hello there polkadots

Hello there!

Thank you all so much for the positive comments on my last post, I really appreciated them! I'm glad I talked about this topic and let it all out.

Today I had a bit of a blues in the morning. I've been feeling so sick and tired of my daily grind lately and it's really getting me down. I've said this before when I talked about financial dependance, but it's not only about money. I feel stuck in my student life in general  even though I have finished my studies.

Well, the reason for this is that on paper I actually will be a student until the end of September which means I will be limited to working in my two student jobs. It's the office or the coffee shop during the day and my place in the evenings. Sometimes I go out and have a drink at my favourite hangout but that's about it. 

I love this city dearly but after the same places and faces for the last 8 years I am so ready to see something new! I have found the best friends and made some of the best memories of my life in Düsseldorf but the thought of going somewhere new soon makes it hard to still be completely happy here.

That's unfair to say actually because I will definitely miss my stomping grounds a lot. But I also miss my boyfriend over in Perth a lot and I feel this wanderlust growing stronger and stronger.

However no visa is ordered, no flight is booked yet and I feel a bit unsettled, restless and impatient.

This really spoiled my mood today.

I'm sick of sitting around and waiting for things to happen. I'm waiting for my bachelor certificate, I'm waiting for the money I need to prepare my year abroad. Waiting sucks!

So to get me out of the blues I thought about things I can do to achieve some progress and move towards my goal of going to Australia.

Well, I will have to clear out my apartment before I go anyway, so I thought I can at last try to already get rid of as much stuff as possible. I had started to sort out things some weeks ago and sold a part of it at the flea market two weeks ago, but there are still enough books, movies, clothes and clutter that have to go.

So I offered my dvds in a Facebook group, put lots of my clothes up for sale on Kleiderkreisel and dragged a big bag full of books to the city library to donate them.

On my way home I grabbed a Vanilla Latte at Starbucks to reward myself. My mood was way better and I felt like I had gotten rid of some more baggage by actually doing something instead of waiting for everything to solve itself. Progress yay! Now I can hopefully sell all of my stuff to make some extra money for the Australia plans.

If you'd like to shop my closet you can see what's up for grabs HERE!
The website is only for Germany, but if there's something you like I offer international shipping too. Just let me know and I'll find out the shipping costs.

Usually I'm rather a pessimist but today I'm really proud of myself for pulling my head out of the dark clouds and getting shit done. Sometimes I really just need a reminder of that we have to do things ourselves to achieve our goals. No one will go and do it for you, you have to do it yourself!

By the way it's the same when it comes to weight loss: I'm still trying to get rid of 3-4 kilos, so I'll do some workout before I go to bed. No one else will do it for me and if I just sit there and wait nothing will happen because the love handles won't just vanish into thin air (such a bummer!).

Happy Tuesday!