Thursday, 19 June 2014

when only the good die young ain't it ironic I age so well

when only the good die young ain't it ironic I age so well outfit post title

Hi lovelies!

Somehow I feel strange. I'm not in a bad mood, but restless and agitated. I've been playing lots of my favourite songs, turning the volume up, singing along at the top of my lungs, jumping and dancing around in my bedroom to cheer up again after a discussion with the boyfriend on Skype earlier. And still I can't settle down again because I know these stupid discussions only happen due to the long distance relationship we lead at the moment.
It sucks so much to be limited to talking over video chat. Most often the connection is bad so we can't even look each other in the eyes properly - well you never look straight into the camera anyway, you always look at the video window of the counterpart. So there is no real physical communication at all, we're limited to intonnation and choice of words which doesn't always have a positive impact on the conversation.






Everytime time we discuss or fight it makes me feel like I'm an asshole. My boyfriend keeps telling me I'm too negative. Well, I'm still on my way to some good honest self-love and a healthy self-esteem and, oh boy, sometimes the path that leads there is rocky and steep. Sometimes I can't handle the slope and roll back down to a lower level where it takes me some time to get up and brush off the dirt and start climbing again.
The other day I've read a great post about self-love over at "Of North" and thought it must be great to have reached this healthy state of mind with an untainted image of yourself. I've been there before myself and looking back now I know that it felt really good. I would love to just go back and stay there but it isn't that easy, it's a struggle. And if there is a relationship involved with a partner who still has to learn how to handle your behaviour and vice versa it can be complicated at times.
Like today when you have to end the discussion unsolved because the time difference between here and Australia forces the counterpart to go to bed. Well, I hope things will get better after some more favourite songs and a good sleep.


Actually I think I might start baking now at 9 pm because that's another thing I love to do to calm down again. Earlier today I saw a recipe for cinnamon bun scones on Pinterest which I'm dying to try out and now that I think about it some cinnamony snacks for later would be perfect to roll up in my chair and watch some documentaries.



Happy Wednesday everyone!





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15 comments:

  1. I love the outfit but more importantly Im glad you can be so honest in what you wrote. I know it can be hard sometimes to be in a relationship with someone, share your life together but I can't imagine long distance. Ive never had to do long distance but I know how horrible skyping is let alone having a time difference. Plus communication is just such a large part of any relationship. I live with my boyfriend and that comes with its own set of issues at times that you'd never think of, so I can't even imagine how much more difficult long distance is. I guess just think about the time, how ever long until you are together again and what you mean to one another

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  2. :( so sorry you guys had a fight, miscommunication is a bummer. I don't know about you but sometimes I have to pray or approach the subjects again at a calmer time. I like your dress, the necklace you have on is too adorable. Reminds me of Alice in Wonderland. Rachel xo

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  3. You look so cute ! In love with the color of your dress :)


    Bisous !
    Sofia
    http://nuagedemoutons.blogspot.fr/

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  4. Besides loving the colour of your dress, your hair shade looks beautiful. I adore the cute cardigan. Hope your week is going well :)

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  5. Die Farbe des Kleids steht dir sehr gut - und dein neuer Eyeliner cokt tatsächlich ziemlich! :D

    Liebe Grüße,
    Sara.

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  6. Ich fühle mit dir - hatte zwei Jahre lang eine Fernbeziehung Leipzig - London, und blöde Skypeverbindungen. Aber es klappt, wenn man es will! Wir sind jetzt seit 5 Jahren zusammen! :-)

    -Kati

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  7. Durchhalten, kann ich da nur raten! Ich kenne nicht eure ganze Geschichte, aber ich hoffe mal, die Fernbeziehung wird nicht ewig so weitergehen. Streiten tut man sich ja auch im "normalen Leben" ... wenn man sich häufig sieht oder vielleicht sogar zusammen wohnt, sogar recht häufig, wie ich finde (auch wenn es meist nur um kleine Dinge geht). Und bei eurem nächsten Skype Call werdet ihr euer Problem bestimmt lösen und euch wieder vertragen. Ich wünsche es euch auf jeden Fall! :)

    LG, Sabrina
    Happiness Is The Only Rule

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  8. We all have some off days - days that are not necessarily classified as bad but they're not necessarily good either. They're part of live and happen for tons of different reasons to different people. Hope you feel better =)
    You look lovely though!!

    {Teffy's Perks} X

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  9. Such a cute outfit! I love the dress!

    xx,
    www.mellowyellowblog.com

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  10. I really love the colour of that dress ^^

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  11. It's so refreshing to read such an honest blog post. Long distance relationships can definitely be hard. We did that for two years.
    xo TJ

    http://www.hislittlelady.com

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  12. All relationships, long or short distance, have their own good and bad moments, as long as we can accept each other the way we are, and not expect each other to change, then we'll get along fine ;)
    Love all about your outfit, you look gorgeous as always :)
    Thank you so much for stopping by! Hope you have a nice days and a fabulous weekend<3

    x♥x♥

    "Saúde & Beleza - Health & Beauty"




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  13. I love the little birdie print on your cardigan.

    Wardrobe Quarry

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  14. Aw man but just think, it wasn't that long ago when long distance relationships meant a handwritten letter every month and a new photograph once a year! Oh technology: the best relationship saver ever.... ok, well sometimes not at all.

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