Monday, 8 October 2012

a brand-new start

Hi guys!

I just want to give you an update about what has happened in my life lately and what's going to happen in the future.

Some of you might already know that I had relationship issues over the last three months. Well, they are solved: my boyfriend dumped me.
It's sad because we were a couple for almost ten years and in my opinion it was a solid and beautiful relationship most of the time. We found each other at the age of 16, we spent our teenage years together, we became adults together, we had tons of wonderful moments, many first times, many holiday trips, concert nights, went through ups and downs and overcame lots of obstacles.
To me it feels like we made each other become the persons we are now. This is something really special that no one can ever take away from us. We will always remember each other as our first big loves. This is something so special and precious to me and I'm thankful for every single moment spent with him.
Actually I even thought he is the love of my life and that we would grow old together. But sometimes you have to admit to yourself that you thought wrong...

Anyway, I don't want to give you more details on the issues, that's something private that should only stay between the two of us. All I can say is that I am very hurt and disappointed and sad about how our wonderful love story came to an end.

But I'm keeping my chin up, I'm moving on forward now and I'm trying really hard to leave the past behind. I'm sure after some time, when wounds have healed, I'll be able to not look back in anger and only remember the beautiful moments we shared in all these years.

I'm halfway homeless at the moment, so I'll probably won't be able to blog properly until I have found a new apartment. But I will keep you updated as good as I can.

I can't wait to make a brand-new start now and to get an apartment and new creative space asap.

Wish me luck!

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  1. I'm sorry to hear about your relationship. 10 years is a hell of a long time and it'll be very strange to suddenly be without that person as your partner. I've gone through a break up recently too, after a relationship of five years, and it was hard as fuck. It's still strange but I'd like to think that the worst part is over. Of course you're hurt. It'll take a while before all the hurt passes. I hope the break up didn't involve cheating or actual active heartbreaking and that it was, at least, respectful towards the beautiful moments you spent together. Good luck in finding a new apartment and moving on, this too shall pass. :-) Hugs!

  2. Carina! I am so sorry to hear about your relationship - it is always hard to lose your closest companion, especially someone who has been there for so long. Keep your head up and remember that healing takes time. Always look on the bright side of things - you now have a clean slate, a fresh start. You can find yourself a new place, reconnect with old friends, and reinvent yourself. And that there, is a beautiful thing.

  3. oh, das tut mir so leid! hugs! xxx

  4. Das tut mir wirklich leid :(
    ich weiß garnicht, was ich dir groß wünschen oder raten soll. ich hoffe nur, dass du schnell wieder glücklich bist. :)

  5. Yikes, so sorry Carina :(
    I don't even know what to say. It is definitely hard, I hope you can move forward & stay positive. Good luck & lots of love!

  6. So ein Dummkopf!!!

    Aber ich bin mir sicher, du wirst das Beste draus machen!

  7. Schade das zu hören. 10 Jahre sind wirklich ne lange Zeit!
    Ich wünsch dir nur das Beste für die Zukunft ;)

  8. sorry to hear that bad news! hope you’ll have a bright bright future!!

    Heartbeats //Vienna Wedekind//

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  10. I am so sorry to hear about your relationship!! It is so hard to go through that, especially when you two were together for so long. I really hope you are doing well, and can keep a really positive attitude about the future. I just went through something similar in March (we had only been together for 3 years though) it is definitely a hard time!!

  11. Darling I'm so sorry to hear about this :( I can't even begin to imagine how you feel but I hope that you manage to sort out everything that you need to do and make a fresh new start. Take care of yourself and take all the time you need.
    Sending you good vibes and all my love <3 <3 <3

  12. Ach du Scheiße... Manchmal da habe ich Angst, dass mir dasselbe passiert. Bin auch schon 6 Jahre mit meinem Freund zusammen und man denkt das ist unendlich und hört doch von vielen anderen die dasselbe gedacht haben, dass es irgendwann doch nicht klappt. Wenn man mit jmd. seit der Kindheit zusammen ist scheint's ja schon fast keinen anderen Ausweg zu geben...

  13. hallo, vor 2 jahren hat mich mein damaliger freund verlassen, nach einem halben jahr voller existenzieller probleme usw ... wir waren für über 7 jahre ein paar. ich habe mehr als ein jahr unendlich gelitten, da ich eigentlich dachte in ihm die große liebe gefunden zu haben(definitiv nicht die erste). die enttäuschungen die dieser mensch in mir hintrerlassen hat werde ich wohl nie vergessen, da die trennung wirklich wiederlich war (ohne dass es eine andere gab!) aber ich bin nicht mehr wirklich böse. ich weiß nun nur, dass er nicht der meine war und ich weiss sogar, dass er mir im großen und ganzen nicht einmal gut getan hat ... auch wenn es tolle gemeinsame zeiten gab.
    nach 16 monaten des leidens ist ein anderer wunderbarer mensch in mein leben getreten, bald ist es ein jahr. wir sind als paar also noch jung - doch die pläne sind groß. auch die gefühle sind groß! unglaublich groß. ich möchte dir für die harte zeit nur mitgeben, dass es weiter geht, und dass es nicht nur einen menschen - eine große liebe - in unserem leben gibt. ich wünsche dir alles liebe und viel kraft für die nächste zeit, ein tolles neues zuhause und viele gute freunde, die für dich da sind.

  14. Keep your chin up darling. Some things have to come to an end so better things can start. I'm truly sorry for the break up. I've been through a harsh one as well, divorce and all. It's tough to go through those kinds of things but you can either take it as a learning lesson and grow with the process or stand still in time. Take time to heal, don't make decisions too fast. You're a smart girl, strong and so so so absolutely beautiful. You have a strong head on your shoulders, so this is just another beginning in your road to life. Life is so much brighter on the other side, just hang in there. Trust me. I'm living it now. ♥

  15. Ugh I can't even imagine what you're going through after ten years of being with the same guy. I'm so sorry about your break up and I truly hope you can move on as quickly as possible and find happiness again. Good luck and I'm definitely hoping for the best for you!

  16. oh noes. so awful to read all this =( can never know what life throws at you, i suppose. best of luck dear! am sure there`s fantastic things waiting for u in the future. ^^d hugglies and much love, MMxoxo


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