free falling

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[DE] Hallo meine Lieben!

Jede Woche nehme ich mir vor mehr als einen Post zu veröffentlichen und jede Woche klappt es nicht weil ich im Moment so komisch drauf bin.

In letzter Zeit fühle ich mich trotz regelmäßigem Sport und genügend Obst und Gemüse doch sehr ausgelaugt, gestresst und antriebslos. Ich weiss gar nicht was mit mir los ist, denn so weinerlich und empfindlich kenne ich mich eigentlich selbst nicht - und so gefalle ich mir auch nicht. Was mich so stresst ist meine momentane Situation, die sich irgendwie wie ein freier Fall anfühlt.

Ich habe meine Wohnung in Deutschland aufgegeben, habe all mein Hab und Gut verkauft und nur das Nötigste bei Papa im Keller verstaut und bin nach Australien gegangen. Hier in Australien war ich die ersten 3 Monate arbeitslos und habe deshalb all mein Erspartes aufgebraucht. Jetzt habe ich zwar einen Job mit festem monatlichem Einkommen, habe aber kein Geld und auch keine Zeit übrig um zu reisen und mir Australien mal genauer anzuschauen. Es ist frustrierend! Noch dazu weiss ich gar nicht, wie es weitergehen soll so ohne Erspartes und ohne Plan und Ziel. Ich hänge ein bisschen in der Luft und das fühlt sich ein wenig seltsam an. Noch dazu bin ich jemand, der viel zu viel nachdenkt und deshalb nicht zur Ruhe kommt und das macht mich im Moment so wahnsinnig müde und lustlos.

Wenn man so einen Punkt im Leben erreicht ist die beste Lösung, sich darüber klar zu werden, was man will. Es ist schwierig, aber es passiert langsam, ich bin auf dem Weg dorthin, es kristallisiert sich langsam eine Richtung heraus. Die gesamte letzte Woche hat sich angefühlt, als hätte ich mich selbst unterwegs verloren und würde langsam wahnsinnig werden. Ab morgen habe ich mir vorgenommen mich selbst zu therapieren, wieder mehr Yoga zu machen, eine Massage für meinen armen von Stessverspannungen geplagten Rücken zu buchen, tief durchzuatmen, mich nicht verrückt zu machen und in Ruhe zu überlegen, wie es für mich weitergehen soll. Es ist zwar angsteinflößend so frei zu fallen was den weiteren Verlauf des eigenen Lebens angeht, aber es ist ja auch positiv, da einem alle Möglichkeiten offen stehen. Alles wird gut wenn ich Herz und Verstand dazu bringe, wieder zusammenzuarbeiten. Herausforderung angenommen!

// dress: primark (second hand via ebay) // necklace: new yorker // purse: primark // shoes: h&m //

[EN] Hi loves!

Every week I plan to publish at least two posts here and everz week I fail because I'm in such a weird mood at the moment.

Despite regular workouts and enough veggies and fruit I've been feeling pretty drained, stressed out and lethargic. I don't know myself that whiny and sensitive and I don't like myself like this. What stresses me out so much is my current situation that feels like a total freefall.

I gave up my apartment in Germany, sold all my belongings, stored only the essentials in my dad's basement and moved to Australia. Here in Australia I was unemployed over the first three months which forced me to spend all my savings. Now I have a job with a fixed monthly income but I don't have any savings or time to travel and see more of this beautiful country. It's so frustrating! On top of this I have no idea where to go from here without savings or a plan or goal. I'm free falling and it feels strange. Furthermore I'm a person who thinks way too much and this is what makes me so restless, tired and unmotivated.

When you reach such a point in your life, the best is to find out what you want. It is really hard, but I'm slowly getting there, it's emerging, I'm finding a direction. The whole week I've been feeling like I lost myself along the way. I was honestly thinking I'm going insane. Starting from tomorrow I have made the resolution to treat myself by doing more Yoga, booking a massage for my stress-related tense back, breathing deeply, not driving myself insane and sorting out where to go from here.

It may be scary to find yourself in such a freefall situation but it's also a positive thing because all doors are open and I can choose what path to take for my life now. Everything will be okay if I can make my heart and mind work together again. Challenge accepted!

 

 

[DE] Das Outfit hatte ich übrigens vor zwei Wochen an, als wir mit Js Familie Indisch essen waren. Ich wollte nicht zu schicki sein aber ein bisschen aufgehübscht hatte ich mich dann doch mit Kleidchen und Klunkerkette. Muss ja auch manchmal sein.

So, das wars für heute. Den Rest des Tages (hier ist eh schon Abend) werde ich faulenzenderweise im Bett verbringen mit Tee und Dokus, damit ich mich endlich mal wieder etwas entspanne nach dem ganzen Zukunftsangst-Stress in letzter Zeit.

Frohe Ostern! Habt einen schönen freien Tag morgen! 

[EN] By the way this outfit is from two weeks ago when we went out with J's family to have Indian dinner. I didn't want to be too chic but dolled myself up a little with the teadress and glam necklace. Sometimes it's got to be a bit of bling.

Well, that's pretty much it for today. It's 9 pm here already anyway, so I'll spend the rest of the evening in bed with tea and documentaries to unwind a bit from all the worries I had over the past days.

Happy Easter! Have a nice day off tomorrow! 

 

easter sunday

Hello loves!

How was your Easter weekend?

I hope you all spent some quality time with dear friends or your family, stuffed your faces with good food and chocolate bunnies, were able to relax and did lots of other nice things.

I visited my mum and stepdad on Sunday and stayed over night. They invited my stepbro and me for dinner and took us to a lovely restaurant. It's the same place that they will celebrate their wedding at next month, so we were all curious about the venue and cuisine.

I wore this pretty navyblue button down dress and added my favourite belt in the world and some cute and simple flats because I'm not a high heels girl. The dress is an Ebay bargain that I bought second hand about a year ago for something around 8€. I don't even know why, but it was not before last month that I started to actually wear it. Before, I would only try it on at home, find it too short or too tight or just not right for my mood and put it back into the closet. Fortunately I've left these failed first advances behind and came to the conclusion that it's the perfect simple dress for everyday. It's still a bit tight around the chest, but oh well, that's what happens when you've got a nice rack, right?

The restaurant we went to is called Auerhahn and it was really nice there. I liked the rustic and romantic country style interior, which makes the place look like a restored farm barn. The waitress was a bit clumsy, but the food and wine were very good. I had bacon-wrapped dates as a starter and pork filet in sherry sauce with garden vegetables and wild garlic spaetzle as main course, mmmhhh yummy!

You can see some pictures of the interior and food at the bottom of the post.

As Monday was a holiday we all slept in and had an extensive late breakfast. After I moved out years ago I started to learn to love these rare occasions when we are all able to sit down at the same table and have breakfast together. There is always an abundance of rolls, bread, cold cuts etc. and music and lots of things to talk about.

Okay, enough ramblings about family and food. Last but not least here are some pics of Sunday night:

Have a nice day!

  

owls, florals and healthy cookies

Hellooo and happy Easter!

I hope you guys are having a lovely Easter weekend with your friends and family.

I already visited my dad and his girlfriend from Thursday til Friday to celebrate her birthday. The next day we took a long walk through the woods and rewarded ourselves with coffee and cake.

Today I'll visit my mum and her boyfriend (husband to-be, I'm so excited for their wedding next month!).

So you see I'm pretty busy with the family, that's why I have to squeeze in this springy Easter outfit post here today.

The outfit is what I wore yesterday to run some errands. I also made the easiest healthy cookies in the whole wide world, you can find the recipe at the bottom of this post.

I am so in love with my new Gina Tricot skirt! The shape and print are perfect, especially for spring/summer. Add my favourite owl shirt and a light cardi et voilà: a cute casual look.

Oh and there is the P2 "Baker Street" lipstick again! Some of you might already know it from my last post. I just can't get enough of it at the moment! Such a perfect bright pink for sunny days! Instant cuteness!

And, as promised, here is the recipe for these yummy healthy cookies:

Mix 2 ripe bananas with 1 cup of quick oats. Add grated chocolate, coconut or nuts if you like.

Make flat small heaps on a baking tray with baking paper and bake them in the oven (150°C for 15 minutes).

That's it, supereasy! I found the recipe here.

Happy Sunday lovelies, until next post!

  

late easter post

Hi guys!

Thanks for all the nice comments on my last posts, but it was not my birthday ;)
As usual I'm a bit behind on posting about what happened lately. But at least I managed to keep the chronological order of things, so you can't have everything.
Anyway, this is what I wore today. It's a slightly different version of what I wore on Easter Sunday to visit my Dad and his girlfriend.



♥ shirt: only ♥ jeggings, headband, jacket + shoes: h&m ♥ belt: primark ♥



Last friday on birthday bash #2 our friend Nina told me and the girls that she's going to marry her boyfriend as soon as in the middle of June! Damn, we were stunned and so happy for her! The first bride-to-be in our group of girls :)
I already know that my salary will be pretty low in June, so I thought why not go and look for a dress today?! Haha, I just can't resist a good excuse to go shopping. So off I went and I came home with a lovely Promod dress! Not exactly a typical one for a wedding, but hey I'm simply not the type for sexy cocktail dresses. I'd rather like to feel good in what I wear instead of feeling and looking like a big meat loaf wrapped with pink satin or something.
I won't wear or photograph the dress before the wedding. So, anticipation much? :)






Above you can see the first blooper ever on this blog! Normally I'm too vain to post them (I suck, I know), but this one is superfunny, so I hope you have a good laugh when I tell you that I wanted to strike a nice pose and almost fell on the ground with my face first. I was squatting on tippy-toes and started tilting forward while the self-timer was on :D



♥ ring: bijou brigitte ♥ necklace: accessorize ♥




Uhm, as this is actually an Easter post I think I have to get back to Easter Sunday. So, it was lovely weather, my Dad has a beautiful garden where we sat on the porch and enjoyed ourselves most of the time. My Dad's girlfriend Judith served us a delicious Easter brunch and yummy coffee and cake later on. Judith's sister and her husband and kids were there too, so I had lots of fun watching the two little boys play with the lawn sprinkler and garden hose. I also played tag with them and we blew soap bubbles.

Here are some Bad Taste Toast Easter Sunday impressions for you :)


















You can't imagine how tired I was in the evening. I haven't really played outside since I was like... I don't know, I haven't done this in a really long time ;)
I hope you had a wonderful Easter weekend too!
Happy Wednesday!



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