on self struggle and band shirts

Hello lovelies!

Phew quite some time since the last post, no?

Well, I admit it was not only the exams that kept me away from the blog but also a little struggle with myself. I've been living alone for four months now and lately I've realized how hard it is to get used to it again. I have lived alone before, but back then I was in a relationship, then I lived together with my ex for four years - and now I'm living alone, really alone, for the first time actually. It's awkward that there's no one to spend your time with, so I often catch myself sitting here thinking "Hm what now?" because I have nothing to do. Then sometimes I feel a little low about the situation, curl up in bed with a movie and that's it. On other days I consider finding new hobbies, new friends, trying to make the best of it. It's up and down, up and down at the moment. Seems it'll take some more time to arrive in the single life completely. I hate it, I'm too impatient for this crap.

But I'm not complaining (at least not so much), basically I'm doing fine, I just can't switch off my head.

Anyways, on most days I was not able to take good outfit photos indoors because of the bad light, so there are a couple of looks that I'll reshoot outside again. The pics above are the only ones that turned out good enough to post them here.

I love to wear unbuttoned shirts instead of cardigans lately and I'm getting back to including more band shirts into my outfits too. Most of them didn't fit me during the last years, but now after the weight loss I'm happily rediscovering how much I love them.

This Muse shirt however is a new one, I ordered it from Ebay US because they have a bigger variety of ladies shirts to choose from, more different styles and all. Plus most often it's even cheaper to buy band merch from overseas - the only disadvantage are the longer shipping times.

I'm not so much into the latest Muse album, but apart from that I'm a fan so it was high time for this shirt.

Oh and I felt like wearing some lipstick that day, how do you like it?

Another thing that totally got lost between exams and coping with myself is that I finally managed to get my first tattoo.

I have thought about the motive and placement for about 8 years and after all this emotional crap in the last months and after realizing that I'm getting older way too fast, I thought it was now or never - so better now.

These birds are taken from an artwork of the Korean artist Seonna Hong and they mean a lot to me. Hope you like it? I abslutely love how it turned out.

Have a lovely weekend guys!

now playing: muse - plug in baby